Boobjobs and Bugaboos

Natalie Green - 25 Oct 16

Boob jobs and bugaboos, gold diamond rings, those are a few of my coveted things!
I was going to start with a boob pic but did not want to set unrealistic body goals for my readers (#acupbaby).

I have spent/wasted? time in my life planning for things I would get when I had more money. It started at 15 when being insecure about my flat chest I planned when I would get a boob job. If I had had bigger boobs I would be more womanly, more attractive, happier. I don’t know precisely when it happened but I realised one day that I’d stopped wanting that boob job. I had small boobs but that hadn’t impinged on my life (in fact I know one man who loves them and two babies thought they were the absolute bomb) and I certainly wasn’t considering major surgery.

Fast forward to finding myself unexpectedly pregnant (we like to call her our graduation surprise!) and I found myself thinking when I have more money I’ll get a bugaboo(expensive pram for those uninitiated). I didn’t have one when M was little and then I found myself with a healthier bank balance, a second baby and my chance to get that Bugaboo but there was something different now. I didn’t want it – to be clear I have nothing against bugaboos, they look smart and are safe for babies.

I reflected on what stopped me from buying it and it dawned on me; the bugaboo much like the boob job (now there’s a sentence you probably haven’t read before!) was something I wanted when I felt I needed to be MORE…if I have a boob job I’ll be more attractive, if I have a bugaboo I’ll fit in more, I’ll be more of a mum. I call these things ‘more buttons’.

Push the ‘more button’ and you’ll be better. Every mum, in fact every person I’ve met has ‘more buttons’, whether that’s a mum thinking if I breastfeed/go to a million classes/sleep train/dress well/ work part time/work full time I’ll be better or someone thinking if I move house/change jobs/get a new car or own this, that or the other I’ll be happier, there is something …if I have X I’ll be more… It’s not that any of the things I wanted were wrong it’s just that maybe I wanted them to fill a gap. I own lots of stuff but I’m trying to move away from the buying things to make me feel better cycle.

Now you might not have an unbalanced relationship with buggies and boobs like me but I’m guessing you have at least one ‘more button’?

P.S the gold diamond rings i mentioned? Well I’d just like to reassure anyone who wants to give them ,that I have a balanced relationship with diamonds and will lovingly accept them!

Natalie Green

Mum of one disabled daughter and one highly energetic toddler boy. Teacher. Wife. Book reader. On Instagram @andgreenandblue and Facebook @Andgreenandblue

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