Letting Anxiety in….

Jyoti Gohil - 1 Aug 17

At the time of writing this post I was sitting on a park bench.   I had planned my daily walk, 32 weeks pregnant and trying to be active to the end. However whilst I was getting ready I suddenly got a sinking feeling. Deep down, a sense of dread. Out of nowhere. No warning….

I had spent the afternoon shopping for kitchen utilities in preparation for a move to our new home.  And earlier in the day I had to attend an appointment to check my bubbas heart, which was just precautionary,  yet doesn’t stop the intense fear. I’m pleased to say all is fine.

So why the sense of dread? It could be a culmination of things; new baby (not my first), new home, scary scans or perhaps, just life.  And that’s when I realised that sometimes anxiety just appears with no reason or indeed warning.

So as I was walking in the park it suddenly dawned on me that I have got to stop questioning why she appears.  (Anxiety has to be a woman because she is all consuming, powerful but has a way of dealing with stuff!)

Everytime I become anxious I seem to look for a reason, somehow to make myself feel better. But perhaps I need to let her in, accept her and manage how she makes me feel.   Believing that it passes and accepting that this could just be how I am is key to not letting it spiral, you know, where you create a movie of epic negativity!

So whilst I can’t change everything about my thoughts and anxiety, today I have told myself to let her in and don’t fight it. Work with it , use all the tools I have and believe in my inner warrior.  She is fearless.

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Jyoti Gohil

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