Meh….

wordswithmrsh - 30 Jun 19

The three letters that sum up where I am at right now. God it’s annoying. I feel like I am stuck in a bit of a funk and need to shake things up a bit but the Meh is making it too difficult to start shaking. Given my way I would like to spend the next couple of weeks hiding in bed watching films that contain Keanu Reeves. My 3 kids and job and the need for never ending food supplies for the house make this impossible.

Maybe it’s because it’s the final weeks, where we all drag ourselves towards the summer holidays. The school and nursery admin at this point is next level – I need either a PA or a wife to help me remember dates/forms/payments/locations/times/outfits/the right lines for the right child for their assemblies…. It is endless. Emergency texts are being sent daily to my more organised friends to confirm what is actually happening. Followed by messages with eye watering laughing faced emojis at whatever has been forgotten or cocked up. It’s draining.

Maybe it’s because this year so far has been FULL ON. I pride myself on staying home and sitting down as much as possible. But for some reason, the first six months of this year have been non-stop. Events, birthdays, work commitments (mine and the husbands), kids activities, family things, blah blah blah, Nothing unusual about that but there just seems to have been so much extra going on already. Down time as been lacking. Perhaps the Meh is just burnout from keeping on keeping on.

Or maybe its too much social media and looking at other people having all the fun. Allegedly anyway. We have fun, keep busy, enjoy new experiences, we are happy and healthy and loved. We are not on holiday a lot though, we don’t have a posh house or fancy furnishings or lots of new clothes that people want my opinion on. Although I did buy a beautiful Fat Face dress is a local charity shop for a fiver so I was pretty pleased about that!

So what to do?

I think rather than trying to fight the Meh or work out why it is stalking me right now, I should acknowledge it. It’s clearly hanging about at the moment trying to tell me something… like I just need to slow down or stop for a bit. The shake up can wait.

A digital detox is probably a good idea. I actually really enjoy social media and seeing glimpse of the lives and adventures of others but maybe not just now. I am loosing my focus, getting distracted a little and need to remember to look inward before looking out

And a duvet day with Point Break and John Wick is not totally out for the question, although a fortnight is probably pushing it. So I will get some me time scheduled in. As busy as it is, there will be a way to block out some space. I’ll talk to my PA.

wordswithmrsh

Mum of fabulous children, wife to one very patient husband. My blogs are about anything that has popped into my head as it occurs to me. I have aspirations to write more, that are slowly turning into reality. A lover of the simple things in life - good friends, good food, good wine and of course family.

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