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PND and ‘Breast is Best’
I have no interest in adding to the debate on “Breast is Best’, as I’m not sure it ever does anything other than draw in those who agree or disagree, firmly, with one side or the other.
My disclaimer is, I formula fed Reuben. For me, it was a lifeline. With that said, I stand for your
I had no plans to formula feed (FF), perhaps in the same way I didn’t plan to have PND. It’s something I never gave much thought to, assuming that I would ‘just’ breast feed (BF), in the same way I assumed I would ‘just’ be emotionally well. We had no formula in the house, to plan for Reuben’s birth, and only owned a couple of bottles – that had come in some sort of set. I think I had mentioned once, to Gavin, that maybe we should
The more I have connected with mums, particularly over the last few months, the more I realise that BF is not a straight forward story. For many mums, BF comes with its up and downs. For what it’s worth, so does FF! I’m not sure we should be surprised by that – of course it’s a natural experience (in that out bodies are made for it) but being natural does not mean it always ‘comes naturally’ or easily. Just like birthing a baby – it’s ‘natural’ for a baby to be born from a mummy,
I firmly believe it was PND that caused me to give up on BF. Of course, I can’t be 100% sure, but I have a good hunch I’m right. I know there are many mummy’s for whom BF has been an important lifeline in PND and I’m so delighted to hear that. If that’s you and you want so share your story – I’d love to feature it. For me that wasn’t the case. Let me share why.
Straight after Reuben was born, in the recovery ward, a nurse said “Are you hoping
She wasn’t the warmest or most compassionate in nature – I accept she had a busy job – but I do think those attributes are key, when dealing with mums who have just given birth. The first time she gave Reuben to me there was A LOT of
That continued, as she began to ‘man handle’ me, to get Reuben into the right position. Turns out, both Gavin and Mum where annoyed by her manner and nature, as they didn’t think her approach was helping, but neither felt they had the authority to say – which I understand. That approach wrecked my confidence and heaped fuel onto the fire, with all I was already feeling PND wise. It didn’t get better – as they began to ‘manually’ get “something” from me, into the
Thankfully, the following day a new midwife was assigned and she was lovely. I honestly think I was traumatized by the previous efforts – feeling like a major failure and guilty that I was starving my baby. When she said I could give him some formula AND continue to try to BF, I almost jumped at the chance. I cannot tell you the relief that
I’ve heard it all where FF is concerned. From being told how “selfish” I am, to how “disgusting” my choice was. I’m not honestly sure I ever felt that I had a real choice, but that’s another
PND statistics are pretty useless, as far as I’m concerned. I honestly doubt that half of the mums who struggle ever get properly diagnosed, though not for want of trying. So there are many, many more mums suffering than we will
So what about PND and Breast Feeding? I can’t help but wonder if there is some sort of correlation. I’m not, for one minute, suggesting that everyone with PND decides to FF, or that PND interrupts BF, for all mums. But I reckon it must for many. Maybe it’s not that a mum does as I did, and FF’s right away. Maybe their journey with BF is just so much harder, than it needs to be, with PND in the mix as well. Perhaps a mum gives up much quicker than she’d hoped, because BF on top of PND is just too much to cope with, for
Even if I am only slightly correct, and even if it’s only a small percentage of mums, for whom PND and BF is not a good mix, should the Government not be even more keen to improve our Perinatal Mental Health services? If
If I had be given proper support in pregnancy, so that someone (me or another) had realised that I had antenatal depression, I may well have made every different choices. If I had been given meaningful support when Reuben was born and someone had asked
Again, this isn’t pro BF or against FF. I would never seek to tell you what choice youshould make.
But as the Government and Health Service would like to tell me what choice they believe I should have made,should they not be putting every effort into making sure that what they promote, can actually become a reality for all, not just for
If you really want to make me, or any other mum, feel empowered to BF then you must make sure you hit the issue where it really matters. For me that would absolutely have been addressing, diagnosing and treating my PND and Perinatal Mental Health.