Redundant – adj: not or no longer needed or useful

Kimberley Hughes - 28 Feb 16

Seven months into my maternity leave and I made the difficult decision to go back to work. After a few keeping-in-touch days I felt like I’d missed that part of me. The part that gets up stupidly early, puts on a pair of heels and a large amount of make up. The part of me that was just about me. I was getting excited about the thought of people talking to me about things other than what my baby was eating now and if she was crawling yet.

So the decision had been made and the next step was to find a nursery. This was easier and less emotional then I had previously thought. (Not only because one of the nurserys was beautiful and the other looked like something you see on the news, and not for good reasons- more on this to follow) It just felt right, I was ready for this. Im ready to be me again.

I’m now 9 months into my maternity leave and the going back to work date is drawing closer, well that would have been the case if I wasn’t called in for a redundancy meeting.

Redundant: adjective ‘not or no longer needed or useful’

This decision to leave my child at a nursery whilst I be just a bit selfish for a few days had been taken out of my hands, as had my company car (sob!).

All the excitement had gone, along with my independence. There was reasoning behind my redundancy and I was one of a large amount of people, but I took it hard, I’m a first time mum who was no longer needed or useful and now unemployed.

Now redundancy does mean one thing – a pay out. And as everyone keeps reminding me that means I don’t have to worry about working for at least another six months, which is great isn’t it?! Well…

It wasn’t for the money, it was for me. I think women are made to feel guilty about wanting to go back to work, my daughter will be 10 months old when I was due to go back and I think, for me, that’s a great age. She was ready to be a bit social and I was more than ready to be social.

But I’ll make the most of this precious time I have with my daughter, I’d be mad not to. I’ll find something that suits me and makes me feel a little bit more ‘me’ again, and in the mean time I’m sure I’ll find some suitable excuses to stick a pair of heels and a load of make up on, girls night anyone?

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Kimberley Hughes

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