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Banish Working Mum Guilt
Over the past year I have experienced all the emotions when it comes to work. Whilst I was pregnant I counted down the days until maternity leave started, convinced that I would never want to return again. The
Despite the large lump in my throat, I know deep down that me going back to work is the best thing for both of us. I need to get back to being ‘me’. I need time with some new and interesting people. Time to talk about something other than Maya (although I am sure I will bore colleagues senseless with inane Mum chat). Time to miss her and appreciate her amazingness. And she needs some time to grow away from me, to learn from other people, to spend time
This rational, logical thinking doesn’t make it any easier though. It didn’t make it easier when I left her this morning, crying and reaching for me. Pleading with me not to leave. Her little eyes frightened and anxious. It doesn’t help me with the heavy load of guilt I am now carrying around alongside my wet wipe-free handbag. I’ll feel this guilt all day. Mum guilt. Every Mum experiences it, and
Firstly, you look in the mirror and you repeat ‘I am a fantastic mum who loves my baby and always does the best by him/her’. Secondly, you reframe what it means to be going back to work. You’re not abandoning your baby, you’re not being selfish, and you’re not doing a bad thing. You are giving your baby the opportunity to explore and
Right, I’m off to the mirror to reapply my lippy and start repeating that affirmation.